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loss
while in Scotland this summer
even on those nights
when the dark heavens
sparkled with the eyes of a thousand lovers
I could not locate Orion
this left me strangely unsettled
for reasons
I still don’t quite understand
but it reminds me
in a way
of my feelings about you
because there’s something
I didn’t have or need
before I met you
and which I still don’t have
but desperately need
now that you are gone
I was always alone
but never lonely
so why
now that I am alone again
do I feel an aching loneliness
and the loss of that something
I never had
Yup. A question to ponder. Do we override the loneliness or listen carefully to ourselves and wonder exactly what we are missing? Creates such a whirling inside.
Sometimes self-understanding is not the easiest thing, is it, Lindsey?
It certainly is not! Hopefully self compassion helps.
An eternal question, so achingly beautifully expressed.
Thanks, Jenne.
This is one of life’s great mysteries, I think
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